Tuesday, November 26, 2013

How Else Will I Know That I Am Alive ?



Alive * by Mari Rum



How else will I know that I am alive,
unless I close my eyes and see?
See my tears run down my throat,
causing my breath to catch inside of me.
Making me die temporarily,
How else will I know that I am alive,
if I cannot feel?
With your light fingers on my skin,
your hands tell of a love unmatched.
How else will I know that I am alive,
if I cannot taste your lips on mine,
see myself in your eyes,
hear my name on your breath?
And how will I know that I am alive,
If you do not hurt me?
You pull at my heart
and tear it out of my chest.
You throw it up high in the air
and I jerk ...
with fear,
in pain,
with excitement,
in agony ...
Tell me how will I know that I am alive,
if my breath is not taken away
every-time you look at me,
smile at me,
touch me?
Tell me,
how am I to know
that I have a heart,
if I cannot feel it beat?
Feel it flutter with the joys of first love,
feel it crushed with the pains of fast love.
How else am I to know that I can feel,
if you do not show me?
Who will help me feel alive if not you?
Choose any way you want to show,
Pain, love, loss, failure...
all I want to feel is
alive!
alive!
alive!


How else does one know that they are alive,
unless from the pain that one feels deep inside?
How else will I know that my hear has a beat,
unless you step all over it with your feet?
How else will I know that I am alive,
unless from the pain I feel when you walk all,
over my bared heart with your heels?
Tell me how I'll know of the blood in my veins,
If you do not show me with that knife in your hands.
To feel pain is to realize the truth,
I have something to gain from my pain.
You hurt me,
I bleed,
You lie to me,
I break,
You die,
I cry.
My pain is my gift.
The mirror of life,
In it I see my reflection,
as alive as can be.
I revel in the feel of my hot tears,
running down my cheeks,
down my neck,
down my chest.
The feel of me.
They suffocate me,
I choke,
I scream,
I gnaw,
I bite,
I scratch,
I feel all,
because I am alive.
The sear of pain running down your chest.
A pain from your head to your toes.
Then I know,
I am,
I was,
I will be,
I have been,
I am in ...
the process.
I am alive,
alive, alive, alive, alive.
But tell me how else does one know that they are alive,
unless from the pain?

Thursday, November 7, 2013

The World I Live In : Have * Will *

Have * Will * by Mari Rum.
Have breakfast
will skip
Have Facebook
will friend
Have condoms
will fuck
Have hours
will work
Have money
will spend
Have blemish
will obsess
Have gossip
will spread
Have lips
will kiss
Have minutes
will text
Have pole
will strip
Have secrets
will hide
Have life
will breathe
Have worries
will pray
Have dreams
will hope
Have music
will dance
Have time
will waste
Have jealousy
will hate
Have fear
will fake
Have misconception
will judge
Have joy
will smile
Have heart ♥
will love
Have friend
will bond
Have God
will pray
Have booze
will drink

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Papier collé 01 : The Dream Issue - Editor's Note



Editor's Note:

"If an unmet dream was meant to be, it'll never let you be"
~ A. Smarts <3
Hey there! Welcome to the first issue of papier collé, our zine that celebrates creative rebelliousness, self-expression and open-mindedness. This issue is for the dreamers amongst us! Lots of times in life we get opportunities to live out our dreams but seldom ever take them. To be fair it's not always in our control; lots of things contribute to our lack of enthusiasm for our dreams but the thing about dreams, especially ones that were really meant to be, is that they'll never let you rest until you fulfill them or atleast take a go at them.
And isn't that the most important thing about dreams, taking a go at them? So here's to following my dreams, and to you following yours! Click on the links in the table of contents to read more, don't forget to comment or tweet to let us know what you think.

~ A. Smarts
(Editor - in -chief)